My son’s flight left just a while ago. He called me right before he boarded, I was driving in to work at the time. I wished him luck and a safe flight and reminded him to send me an address as soon as he was able. I kept it real short…I wanted to tell him to not be scared, like I was all those years ago. I remember how scary it was to go so far from home all by yourself…but, I acted like he was just going for a quick visit, a vacation…not a life changing trip, a trip that really takes him from his mothers arms and makes him a man that stands on his own.

I remember when he was small…he took his immunizations without a whimper, because he was going to school come hell or high water, just like his older brothers. And on that first day of school, he wouldn’t hold my hand…he was afraid I wouldn’t let him stay. Well, this time he is going where his brothers have not led, and I have not held his hand, but tried to give him the courage and encouragement to take those first steps. I have no doubt that he will meet all the challenges and crack jokes and wise cracks in their face…he is MY son after all.

I did call him back and left him a voicemail to find when he next accesses his phone; I hope that it will help let him know how very much I love him and how proud I am to call him my son. And I can’t seem to stop crying and get any work done…good thing the boss left early for the holiday weekend.

View from my bed

I have been enjoying my time off, getting lots of work done around the old homestead. You can see the progress over on my other blog.

I have gotten 2 of the dogs to the vet and licensed and have an appointment for the other 2 in a couple of days. I had the Animal Control Officer out for an inspection so that I can get a Animal Facility License. Something we have to have out here if we have more than 3 adult dogs...helps keep the puppy mills from getting started too easily. I passed with flying colors and had a very nice chat with her. So I will have that by the end of the week also.

I got to talk with Sean on the phone the other night for the first time. He has a lovely deep voice and was a pleasure to talk to for all that he was nervous. We have been discussing cross dressing lately and like in most things we seem to agree on most points. I will be blogging more on this at a later date. And he is sending me a birthday card...such a sweetheart.

This week being my birthday week is getting rather busy, I hadn't planned on doing anything, but friends and family have conspired to fete me here and there. I am going to visit with a Pirate friend tonight, her hubby is working late and we will have their lovely house and garden to ourselves for chit chatting and then we will be hitting the Mad Greeks place for some awesome vittles.

Friday night I am doing the Pirate thing at the Stillhouse this is a fabulous place and I get to have curried chicken pasties and whiskey cheesecake...it just doesn't get any better than that.

Saturday will find me BBQing for the whole fam damnly as we do a bon voyage for my youngest...he ships on the 30th. Not too far off.

Sunday, I am meeting up with the SMTR gals for dining and fun...one of the other moderators birthday is this week also and we think it is a grand idea to share the fun. She has sent me some kind of a surprise...I got an e mail informing me of such. I retaliated by sending her a gift certificate to Natural Family Botanicals. A place near and dear to my heart...they have wonderful items and I love their Amber roll on oil and the Nag Champa oil and soap.

I am hoping to find time to wash my van...I have new bumper stickers to add to the montage...maybe, I can get the boys to do it for me...hhmmmmmm.

Father's Day

Darrell V Hunt
2-10-1942~2-28-2007
RIP

Men as Sex Objects~Sporty Model

Ownership~

Sean (new guy) and I have been conversing and exploring the ramifications of ownership. We both agree that to truly own someone 24/7 is distasteful in a real world environment…we do not believe in slavery. In a ‘kink’ environment we think it is unrealistic to do ‘24/7’…that is a whole lot of work for the ‘owner’, as a ‘kink’ idea. We think it is HAWT! We both have buttons that the concept pushes…and so we are exploring it from that perspective.

I have had ideas for a series of photos exploring this theme. I like the idea of marking someone as mine...men in various state of dress with hand prints in various places in different mediums (paint, mud, etc…) some day…

I like the trappings of ownership…collars, leashes, manacles and such, it feeds my need to be in control of myself and my environment …something that is felt more in times of stress than when I am on a more even keel. I’m sure there is a physiological explanation for it, but the bottom line is, I am turned on by the idea of ownership and my attraction to the trappings and behavior associated with it varies according to my mood…I am a woman…so sue me.

45 Lessons

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents
will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is
all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never
blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to
you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an
answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save
it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this
matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or
didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab
ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Another new puppy?

So okay...it wasn't in the plans...but, when is it ever really? One of the gals at work, who fell so in love with Gilbert...her daughter found another Pom. He is 20 pounds! A real roly poly! His nails were way over grown and curling under and into his pads...they have 5 cats and several dogs and they asked if I could take him.

What can I say? Gilbert softened me up...I couldn't say no to another Pom. I gor him groomed on Sunday, got rid of the long, matted hair...he feels much better now I am sure.


This is my new diet and exercise buddy...we can get in shape together!